Agita and angst

Lat night I injected Natasha correctly and was pleased that I had acted on my hunch and called the help line. Instinct is almost always right, dontcha know. And I was pleased that things went smoothly. In fact, I think the "dummy" injections, which a friend kindly referred to as placebos, hurt less than the ones with Genotropin, thus establishing in Natasha a new mindset that these really and truly are no big deal. As Kundalini yoga stresses so heavily, often our mind is our biggest limiting factor.

But I wasn't prepared to be hit with extreme guilt over having done it wrong. I don't really think it's my fault that I didn't know how to do it. I was given an incomplete training from both Miles and the insurance company. Nonetheless, if I'm going to inject my child I want to be doing it for a purpose, because it sure isn't the highlight of my day.

Moving on from here I will do it right. Moving on from here it will become increasingly easier and more routine. That's what they tell me, and I'm sticking with it. Unfortunately, no one has addressed the emotional factors. I guess I'll have to surf those waves as they come and try not to get bitten by too many sharks.

Am I doing these right?

Day 4 and all seems to be going well. Except I'm not sure I'm giving these shots correctly. Nurse Miles and the directions from the company instruct you from when you have to attach the meds cartridge all the way to giving the actual shot. 

Problem is, you only have to replace the meds cartridge every 12 days or so. It seems logical that in the interim I would proceed from the step following the cartridge attachment, which is what I have done for the past few days. I doubt myself, though. I am going to call my Prizer rep tomorrow and make sure I'm doing what I should be doing. I'd have to have given my kid "dummy" shots.

On the positive side, today was really easy. Natasha let me give her the shot without the needle guard, which was much easier for me. She seemed pleasantly surprised with how painless it was. I hope I put the medication in her!

And, she was starving at dinner time. Natasha is never starving. She's hardly ever even hungry. Maybe that's a good sign that this Genotropin is starting to work. Sending good thoughts into the universe...

Got the goods

Our starter kit arrived today, complete with needles, alcohol swab, "pen," how-to DVD, refrigerator-safe storage case and a random backpack apparantely included to make the kid feel like all of this is going to be fun, fun, fun. It's not working in our house.

Natasha is aware of what is going on, aware that the shots are going to begin sometimes next week, and is for the time being living in denial. I know she doesn't want to watch the DVD, because the video is available online and she didn't want to see it there. I haven't pressed the backpack on her yet.

Put in a call to the insurance to let them know we got the starter kit, and now await a call from our nurse named Miles. And then we're off...